It looks like I might die a little younger than some of you positive people. On the other hand, Ms. Worst-Case-Scenario will always be ready for everything, including the end of the world. I wonder if they thought of that.
My blog is boring me. In fact, I am boring me. I apologize for the general suckitude of my blog.
I have nothing to write about of any interest. A good writer can make something out of nothing — can make getting a container of mayo out of the fridge entertaining. Fellini made 8 1/2, a movie about not being able to make a movie. I ain’t no Fellini.
Of course, I used to be exciting. Where is that wild and crazy girl who lived on a purple school bus with her friends, a dog and two chickens and traveled across the country? Oh yeah, she grew up. Got married, and became a mother (I suppose it would be worse if I were really exciting and was trying to live a wild and crazy fun life at age 35. Nothing more unattractive than an aging hipster, except an aging hipster divorcee).
In the meantime, I look back and think what mommy bloggers have kept going consisitently for a really long time, without stopping (excluding technical difficulties) and I think of one of the first blogs that first inspired me to write. It was Mom With Attitude. And she’s been doing it a lot longer than her archives go back… sometime in 2002, right after my not-sleeping-through-the-night son had turned one, I came across her blog and thought to myself, I have nothing to whine about. This woman has 3 kids, each with their own unique and individual problems, some profound, and still manages to keep it together. And, she can make using over-the-counter nasal spray interesting.
So, what blog inspired you to start blogging too?
…your son tries to put his point finger with a big green booger on it, in your nose.
The things I never imagined a kid would try to do, before I became a parent.
I’m Baaaaaack.
So what have I been up to?
In the past, whenever I’ve declared I am going to take a blogging break, it doesn’t last very long and I think, why do I bother posting about it?
Maybe it’s like going for a walk with your umbrella to make sure that it doesn’t rain?
Anyhow, I am… taking a short break. Short. The gears in my head need some oiling, and aren’t quite working right at the moment, and I’m feeling overwhelmed by life. Which is a vague explanation but it works for me.
I’m sure I will be back at it in a few days. See ya.
I don’t have much to say on my blog this week — I’d like to say something witty or funny, but my mood is really black, and my life is going through some changes. Change may be good, but I’m like a train that needs a track and I am not the most adapable sort.
I’ve been fortunate enough to be a (mostly) stay-at-home mom for over the first three years of my son’s life, and I feel very lucky for that. Economic times have changed for us recently, though, and it has become clearer to us that living off one income isn’t working for us. We are willing to do without to some extent, but doing without isn’t exactly making ends meet. Bills need to be paid.
So, I will not be a SAHM much longer. I know there isn’t anything “wrong” with good daycare (intellectually) but I really don’t want to put my son in daycare. I am hoping to get hours that I don’t have to do that… but it may not happen. I have bitched about how being a bored stay-at-home mom drives me crazy on my blog (and my old blog) but don’t let it fool you. I’m going to miss it.
…Is to say how much you are enjoying global warming. Because then, of course, you will get over a foot of snow.
Today was my son’s first parent-teacher conference. I didn’t expect to hear much — after all, I was sure that he was pretty up on his milestones, and I have already talked to his teachers about how he behaves in class. We went over a checklist of skills and he seemed to be doing just fine.
The thing that cracked me up, though, was their referral to him as one of the quiet kids. HA.
“We sometimes split the kids up into groups,” one of his teachers said, “and we take the quiet ones over and work with interactive play…”
Anyone who has ever tried to talk to me on the phone when I am home with my son knows the real truth — my son, is in no way, quiet. Unless quiet now means banging, screaming, and singing loud enough to wake the dead. I mean, he does have his quiet moments, but still….
I giggled when I heard them say he is one of the “quiet observers”. I wanted to make a video, with sound, and show it to them. But then I didn’t have to.
During the conference, with me there, his “girlfriend” there, and with no other little kids to feel intimidated by — he decided to come out of his shell. He and his girlfriend were running around in circles, screaming at the top of their lungs.
“He doesn’t do that in school,” one of his teachers said. They both looked shocked.
So, he is quiet, well behaved, and “an observer” in school, and I suspect, if he stays this way, he will make a lot of teachers happy during his school career… which is, all very good. Maybe I should hope that he doesn’t come out of his shell too much, for their sakes.
The other day I read a post by another stay-at-home-mom blogger, about how she feels terribly ashamed that she lives in an ugly house that is a rental, and all her friends have nice stuff. I do feel for her on some level. But in the end, stuff is just, stuff.
I’m human, I want a lot of things we don’t have, too. Although we own our home, it is a shoebox. We could use a bigger home that has a dining room and another bedroom and at least one more bathroom. I’d like to have a cell phone. Cable. TIVO. A really nice car, instead of the 7-year-old one we have with the REALLY ugly graphic on it that is supposed to make it look sporty but doesn’t. A nice new work van for my husband, instead of the dinged up one with 120,000 miles on it.
But, if we had all those things, I’d find something else to want. I’d want an Ipod and and a fancy new zillion mega pixel digital camera, a plasma TV. A redone kitchen. A landscaped backyard. To eat at fine restaurants several nights a week.
And, if I had all those things, I’d want something else. A cleaning person. Designer clothes for us to wear. A high end sound system. The latest gadgets. Luxury cars. Travel.
Want just begets want. At some point I suppose it would never be enough. There will always be The Jones that you can’t keep up with because they are wealthier. There’s always someone that has more. None of that stuff will make me happier. There is no shame in not-having, as long as you have a reasonable quality of life, your health and your family (unless you are some kind of conservative economic Darwinist that thinks wealth is a sign of sucess).
I never cease to be amazed at how materialistic people are. I don’t know if this is an American thing, or a People thing, but it just seems like desire is endless, not just for those blatant materialists but some claiming to follow alternative culture.
On some level I feel proud that we do without. There are a lot of moms who would prefer to stay-at-home, and dads who hardly see their kids, and the only reason they work is so they can have “nice things”. I’m not talking about people who really need to work to pay the bills –I’m talking about people who hate their jobs yet need a $5 latte on their way to work and a designer suit to feel like somebody. And I bet some of those people are just wanting, too… they are wanting to see their kids a little more.order phizer viagra Generic Cialis Warnings viagra patent levitra
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